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30 July 2009 @ 04:51 pm
Hiatus.
I'm sorry, I just don't have the time to post, as you may have noticed already.
 
 
coloredclouds
03 July 2009 @ 02:57 pm
My best friend, aka Betty, is turning 18 today! Wow, that means I've known her for 15 years now. Quite a long time in my opinion. Yesterday was spent making a surprise cake for her. Seeing she's finally allowed to drive on her own, she picked me up today and we took the cake to school. Well, after I almost ran her over as I jumped at her to give her a hugh when she knocked on my door this morning. I'm just so happy for her. At least people loved my cake. Am I that much of a good cook or why is it that every time I cook or bake something, they all can't get enough of it?
Yesterday Faber and I went to get some last presents for her. We ended up buying a Zefron poster, a DVD and a web cam to go along with the driver safety training we organized a couple of weeks ago. The DVD is a horror movie, 'cause Faber and I thought we should be allowed to have some fun too. The last time we three watched a horror movie Betty almost freaked out while the two of us were laughing our butts off, so yeah... We grabbed some food and dropped over on Betty's. Of course we carefully hit the stuff we bought in the trunk. Betty asked where we were, and since we couldn't tell her truth without ruining everything, we said we were just hanging out. Of course she was a bit upset 'cause we didn't ask her to come along, but oh well.
Tonight at the party I can finally tell her why we've been acting so weird not only yesterday but over the past couple of days. It's her birthday party and we had to organize quite a bit for it, such as food, drinks, location etc. Also I had to take care of another present for her. I thought I'd make her a photo album. She always says she wants to start one but never has the time, so I did it. Hopefully she'll like it. I think she will. It's going to be a lot of fun tonight, even though we're planning on having a BBQ outside and as of now it's pouring!
 
 
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coloredclouds
29 June 2009 @ 05:43 pm
My chest feels like it’s going to explode. It doesn’t hurt; it’s just an incredibly dull feeling. At the same time breathing gets harder and harder and I break down. Just like that. I’m on my knees, crying. The tears stream down my face and I don’t even know why. My head is bent as I hold my stomach. Again, it doesn’t hurt. It’s more like the uncomfortable feeling you get in your stomach when you’re on a roaler coaster ride. There’s a weight upon me that keeps me from getting back to my feet. What it is, I don’t know, but it feels like someone’s hands are lying on my shoulders, pushing me down. Every time I try to get up they push me down a bit harder. I want to get up. My chest and my stomach get worse to a point where I can’t take it anymore. I’m no longer trying to hold myself together because I don’t have the strength to do so; physically and mentally. Still I don’t know why this all happens, but I let it all out; I let out all the tears I couldn’t hold back anyway. I collapse under the pressure forced upon me until I can’t cry anymore, until I don’t feel anything anymore. Then I neither feel hurt, nor anything else anymore. It’s like I’m completely empty for a few minutes.

This has never happened to me until a couple of days ago, and since then it happened quite often. What is wrong with me? I haven’t told anyone because I don’t want them to worry, but this is definitely not usual, at least not for me.
 
 
coloredclouds
25 June 2009 @ 01:00 pm
Gosh, I'm so lazy lately; not only too lazy to post, but also too lazy to do anything for school. Example: I have a geography test tomorrow and haven't studied anything yet and I highly doubt I'll study at all. It's just that I... I really don't care. This attitude is wrong, I very well know that, I just can't do anything about it. With graduation next year you should think I spend 24/7 studying. Err, naaah. I do almost nothing.

But let's not talk about this. With all the spare time, what did I do in the last couple of days?
On Friday I was babysitting for the first time. It's quite exhausting when you're not used to having children around you and all of a sudden you have to take care of three little girls. It'll probably just take some time getting used to it. Right after that I jumped in the shower and got ready 'cause it was Faber's birthday and he had a party. Although we weren't that much people, it was fun. Ok, I always have fun as long as Betty and Faber are around, but still... We ate, drank, sang, took weird pictures; simply the 'daily insanity'.
Saturday and Sunday were spent working and being sick. The weather is horrible these days, and me being meteorosensitive is quite annoying. I had the worst headache for three days straight. Not fun.
There was no school for me on Monday, so I could sleep in - yay! - and meet up with Valli. Oh surprise, we worked on our presentation we have to give next Tuesday. You see, I don't really do nothing for school. We got it finished and all, I still feel badly prepared, though.
Yesterday after school Betty and I looked through old photo albums of hers. We had to pick out some old pictures which I could use for the birthday invitations I'm making for her. On a side not, she's turning 18 next week! I knew looking at old pictures is always amusing, but gooosh... I laughed until I cried. She either ate or made a grimace on every single picture. Haha. Later that night Faber, his girlfriend, Betty and I went to the movies. Since Faber drove, it was his turn to choose which movie to watch. Why do men always choose action movies?! We ended up watching 'State of Play', which would've probably been quite interesting under normal conditions, but Betty and I were anything but in the mood for shootings and such. We were bored throughout the whole movie and tried to entertain ourselves by making fun of the movie, 'synchronizing' it or even playing Rock Paper Scissors. Mwahaha, we're gonna pay him back by making him watch a real chick flick, like Titanic or something.
As for today, it was Senior's Prank Day. This day is the chance for the seniors to 'get back' at our teachers by making them do pointless and funny stuff in front of all the pupils. This year's theme was "Germany's Next Top Model"; one of the male seniors even dressed up as Heidi Klum and wore a dress. The teachers had to do challenges from the show, like dressing up and taking sexy pictures. I tried to take pictures until Faber stole my camera and ran off with it. As a result I just had to sort through the 400 friggin' pictures he took. Most of them showed some random woman's butt or neck line anyway, so I could delete 50% of them, but still. That's so typical for him. Haha.

 
 
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coloredclouds
17 June 2009 @ 07:30 pm
German universities were only allowed to charge tuition a few years ago. But now with fees rising, students are taking to the streets to protest.

Tuition at a U.S. public university can run more than $15,000 a year. For a private school, it's more than $25,000. In Germany, universities were only allowed to charge tuition at all a couple of years ago. Now though those fees are rising. Students are protesting.

STEPHEN BEARD: The first day of term at Ludwig-Maximilian University. Sebastian Urchs and his friends are staging a symbolic protest.

They've put up a series of steel hurdles by the university cafeteria, and they're inviting their fellow students to jump over them.

SEBASTIAN Urchs: We're trying to say: "You're here at the university. And there are guys that actually don't want to have you here so they're putting hurdles in your way.

Tuition here costs $1,300 a year, the legal limit in Germany. Not much of a hurdle by American standards. But many of the students emphatically reject the American model. Stefan Liebl, who's studying politics.

STEFAN LIEBL: I don't think American universities are better. Some very famous like Harvard or Yale, only better for very rich people. The system in America, I don't like it.

The protesters claim that tuition fees deter thousands of young Germans from coming to university. There is not the same range of scholarships available here as in the U.S. And unlike American students, Germans are very reluctant to take out loans. Maria Dangwerra has to work two days a week to help pay for her studies.

MARIA DANGWERRA: It's kind of annoying that other persons who don't have to work because their parents are rich, they can sit in library and study. And I have to go to work and sometimes I feel that I should study more, but I don't have the time to.

BEARD: But education has to be paid for. Who do you think should pay for your university education if you do not pay it yourself?

DANGWERRA: I will pay. I mean I will pay in the future when I earn money, and I will pay my taxes. And I think it's the state who has to pay for education.

But others argue that higher education in Germany suffers because of its overwhelming dependence on the state. They say the German government doesn't invest enough. Strolling through the university's shabby main building confirms that impression. There's a dearth of teaching aids like projectors and DVD players. The American Studies department couldn't afford maps of America. But with tuition fees that's beginning to change, especially in the School of Medicine.

ELIAS SCAPARRO: This is an arm, artificial arm, a model of an arm to train how to take blood.

Elias Scaparro -- a third year medical student -- is showing off some of the departments recent purchases funded by tuition fees. A dozen skeletons, an ultrasound imaging machine, and a life-size model of a child.

SCAPARRO: Where you can train your re-animation skills, your basic life-support skills.

BEARD: Resuscitation.

SCAPARRO: Resuscitation. You can...

BEARD: So you're quite happy about tuition fees yourself?

SCAPARRO: Yes, I am because it is improving my learning. And I can learn better with all these equipment.

Even with tuition fees, this university is spending -- per student -- around $11,000 a year, that's half what many public universities in America spend.

Professor Wolfgang Herrmann is president of the Technical University in Munich. An ardent supporter of tuition fees, he sees them as part of a wider plan to wean German universities away from their total dependence on the state.

Wolfgang HERRMANN: What we have to learn from the American system is competition. Competition is the number one thing to have to become successful.

Herrmann wants to get away from the traditional German idea that one university is as good as another. He wants his university to be part of a global elite, and that requires a lot more money from private as well as public sources.

HERRMANN: We are the best funded German university still. But we need to triple our budget in order to safely compete with places like Stanford, MIT and Georgia Tech.

To Germany's student protesters this is anathema. The path to higher tuition fees, to ever increasing student debt, and a widening gap between rich and poor. They'll be out on the streets of Munich again next week calling for the fees to be scrapped. Source.
 

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We advanced our opinion today. Nationwide students and pupils publicly demonstrated against not only tuition fees, but also against the outdated educational system. Change is going to come, sooner or later.